Growing Up

Literally, no joke here, everyone I know is either a) pregnant b) just had a baby or c) getting married this summer. Does this make me a bad person that even while I am extremely happy in a 4 year relationship, I have no desire to get married anytime soon? Maybe I'm playing sweet lemons (good old psychology, turning a terrible situation into something good) because I know if Blake asked me to marry him I would say yes without hesitation and nothing would really change, we already live together... I just feel like my mom was already married with her second child on the way at my age and we saw how that worked out. I don't want to be divorced, EVER and right now I feel like my only solution to that is to never get married. Its like if you don't want to get pregnant or have any STDs you don't have sex right?? I'm also pretty sure I don't want kids, EVER. I have a friend with a 2 year old and Aubrey is the love of my life (pretty ironic since when we were young I always wanted to name my girl Aubrey Nicole, and now I have one without the pregnancy or birthing experience) but the whole responsible for anothers life, responsible for 18 years freaks me out! Its going to cost us an extra $98 to board our 2 dogs while we are in Vegas but there is no way to find a babysitter for 24/5 care for $98. I read an article that estimated you spend $700/month on a baby until kindergarden age child. $700/month!! I don't even spend $700/year on my dogs and they are SPOILED! Plus my dogs are going to die in 12 years and than we are done with them, even after your kids move out they are still around. Wow I sound so negative today, I am just pretty sure that marriage/children is out of my responsibility level right now and I would like to think I am mature for my age. I guess this all has to come from my recent college graduation, I didn't think I was ready for HS or college or graduation and now I have nothing left to "not be ready for"