Today I went to a wedding and saw an old friend, I call her that because we honestly haven't spoken in several years and parted ways on bad terms. I knew she would be there, although looking back on it I am not quiet sure why she was there. The wedding was VERY small and there were few "friends" it was mostly family and I know my boyfriend was only there because he has been really close to the groom all of his life. The wedding was slightly bittersweet because the groom is being shipped off to Iraq for his 3rd tour in August and it seemed like hw as getting married to get double his pay but I saw him cry during the ceremony so I felt like it was more real. I also feel like he got married as a way to help protect her and her son if he dies while in Iraq. I worry about him while he is away and made him promise to e-mail me constantly to let me know if he needs anything sent to him.
Anyways....I spent 2 hours chatting casually with an old friend even though we have not seen each other or spoken to each other in over 3 years. The last thing we actually talked about except for details of parting ways was basically when she told me she "realized I was a person she did not want to end up like" and warned me that my boyfriend was a terrible person and would break my heart. Almost 4 years later we are still dating so I'd like to think she was wrong about him being terrible and breaking my heart. We talked and I realized that at some point it is probably possible to forget the bad things and hurtful things that others tell you. I don't think we would ever be truly friends again and am pretty sure we would never hang out on a regular basis but at the same time it felt nice to know that even though we never apologized it seemed like things were forgotten and forgiven. I wonder what other parts of my life, burned bridges and hateful words spoken have been forgotten and forgiven.
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it's so weird, isn't it? you realize what matters to you and what doesn't anymore.
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